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Starbucks Modeling Job 05/26/2011 I dont have any pictures from...

Fri, 27 May 2011 11:09:00 -0700

Free food provided by Starbucks

Where I sat modeling the ice tea haha

They rented a whole house for this set.

More Free FOODDD! haha

Taking a quick shot during a break hehe

Starbucks Modeling Job 05/26/2011

I dont have any pictures from the shots but I hope I would get some. Its on their hands now so I can’t really ask for them. I just took some shot of these on my phone when no one was looking. Wish I could provide more pictures.

Feels Like We Deserve to Suffer...

Fri, 11 Mar 2011 21:33:00 -0800

Everyone now a days takes things for granted and are too comfortable with their life style. Realize that there are others out there fighting to live every day. Life is too easy for some and people are letting others do the work for them. Why complain when people don’t ever do anything about it? Come on America, Wake up! Stand up and Speak up, be heard! Nothing in this world will change unless something is done about it.

Man and Women that made a difference in the pass has made history, but this time, our generation will have to make history.

Deep in Thoughts

Thu, 10 Mar 2011 23:34:00 -0800

It’s been a long time since I wrote a blog and alot of stuff has been bothering me for the past few days and I feel like need to vent out. This blog could sound very boring, but this is just a reference to what I have been thinking lately, much like talking to myself so feel free to dismiss yourself anytime from reading this passage. Anyways it has been 3 days now without proper sleep because of the amount of work I have to do for school. For one thing I can’t complain. It is education. Still I feel shit every hour of the day. My body is constantly reminding me of the lack of sleep I am putting in. With that being said, I am constantly stressed. Which addresses me to my learning in my Psychology class. Stress can cause one to get sick physically and mental. Honestly I have been experiencing alot of back problems, which has come back from senior year high school. With this in mind I remember how I was supposed to get a back surgery, but the doctor stated that a person can only have a surgery in the spine once, and I remember my parents rejecting treatment. As much as I want the pain to go away, who knows what other problem I might run into in the future? I am experiencing stress at a whole new level. I have never put so much work in school before. For some reason I don’t blame school or label it as my stressor, but other things. For example driving to and from school and the lack of enjoyment. I found that my eating habits also have altered. I eat at a really fast pace, I don’t chew right, swallowing food has been very difficult, and I am constantly for eating energy. I am beginning to worry about all these bad health problems, but the week is almost over and I am looking forward to a very lazy weekend. (Why isn’t there a save button??? wtf) Learning psychology this quarter made me slightly happier, because it connects with one of my other classes, which is btw focus on the topic of Ethic of Consumption. Learning these two classes made me realize how much people put themselves in a whole lot more stress than needed.

One example that many can relate to is working when it isn’t really necessary to have a job. Some people are working alot for many reasons: tuition, family, and even everyday maintance. But to most, working has been away to earn a little on the side to spend more money on nice or fancy things. Like new phone, blah blah blah. I hate to admit it but I too have thought this way, and felt like I need a job to buy more shit I don’t need. Realize that life is full of stress as it is. I have developed a new perspective in life and I am lucky that I found it earlier rather than later and hopefully others will understand why. Look to your left, to your right, and now look down at yourself. Now ask yourself, how many object did you just see that are branded or any type of object that is heavily advertised…including the clothing you are wearing. I can name one right off the back….The computer you are looking at, to read this blog. Believe it or not consumption has entered people’s lives every day. Buying that shirt you are wearing…ask yourself, are you truly happy to buy such expensive branded clothes? (if you are)

Happiness does not come from objects, but family and friends, which wants me to address the fact that I am starting to careless about what I wear in public. Not that I will go out BUTT ASS UGLY, but at least decent. Not wearing expensive clothing that I bought at EXPRESS or in a retail store in general. (Ross is the shit (sometimes))

Enough with educating ~~Shiet~~. Basically, like what Alicia Keys said “Objects doesn’t define what’s within.” (Somewhere along those lines) I am just too lazy to express all this thought at once, but I’ll be glad to explain more in person.

Anyways I find myself happy with the thing I have and wouldn’t want any more or less. (maybe slightly alittle more) Which now draws my attention on another relating subject. NOBODY NEEDS A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND TO BE HAPPY. Honestly speaking being independent focus attention on the little flaws within you. Not saying that you can be perfect, but close to perfect. And maybe later in life someone would truly deserve you at your very best. The way I see it I am too young to fall in love and every time I say I am, I end up being wrong. Looking at it now, (after taking my classes) I realize it would be hard to find love or w.e in our society today because of the great amount of advertisements constantly reminding us how to be or how to look like in public.

I am simply just waiting till the right time comes. Waiting for someone that doesn’t have a CAKE FACE, someone intelligent, and isn’t afraid to be herself. Someone that can sense when something is wrong. Also who has great sense of humor. Not a party animal, but a stay in home kinda girl. (With me of course ;]) She has to be an 8 or 9 or even a 10 (honestly) And simply who expects a successful future. It’s going to be a long journey to find her, but it will all be worth it at the end.

Shit, I spent two hours writing this blog….gah! Back to REALITY lol

Luckiest day 2/03/2011

Thu, 03 Feb 2011 18:41:00 -0800

So funny story today; This morning a BLACK CAT crossed my path while driving, and I went on reverse and went the other way. lol As worried & awkward as it sounds…My luck for today gave me the benefit of the doubt.<—Idk if I used that right LOL

1) I raped (literally) on my Psychology test (front, back, sideways, everywhere (you name it))

2) Back on the UWT group yay! Thanks to Tremicka & Taylor

3) I got my new laptop and I got approve to pay as low as 16 bucks!! every month for 18 months w/o interest. On top of that I got the best deal! I got Phenom II triple-core (currently fastest AMD processor Best Buy can offer), 4gb DDR3, 500 GB, with a graphics card and it totals to be $655 only! Deals.

4) Almost got in a crash on my way to pick up my lil sis from school.

So is it luck? Idk but I pretty sure had a lot…it was worth the awkwardness for 30 second to go the other way and away from the path that the BLACK CAT had crossed. Otherwise my day woulda sucked lol My day couldn’t get any better. =)

Psychology Homework. Just thought I should share this. Enjoy....

Tue, 25 Jan 2011 10:44:24 -0800

Psychology Homework. Just thought I should share this. Enjoy. =)

The earliest childhood memory I can remember is when I was still in diapers. I remember living in a town house, bottom floor, and with a front gate in the Philippines. I was playing with the neighbor who lived upstairs and I remember running to a cardboard box of toys that my mother from Japan had sent me. I was holding a black power ranger with a broken right leg. It was the type of power ranger where the heads flip into mask and unmask. I ran back and forth showing off my toys to the neighbor and I can recall playing with Matchboxes. I’m not sure if it was either Hotwheels or match boxes but I remember the quality of the cars being alittle less. And from my knowledge, Matchboxes made less quality toy cars than Hotwheels. After playing with the neighbor I remember being kicked out from he’s house and he’s parents were angry at him for something I cannot recall from. Its such a blur, but there was alot more things I remember from that day.

Later on the day I remember visiting one of the other houses that I lived with, and as weird as it sounds; I walked in my other neighbor breast feeding a baby, and she squirted me with her boobies. (lol) I ran away while wiping the breast milk off my face. Looking up I remember the clouds starting to turn gray. And that is the farthest memory I can remember. I was probably around 4 years old. This was way back when my real father was involve with my mother.

Yes! Packers VS Bears today!!!! My two favorite team in the...

Sun, 23 Jan 2011 12:24:06 -0800

Yes! Packers VS Bears today!!!! My two favorite team in the league going head to head. Let me know who you’re rooting for!

Can’t Wait for FAST 5 to COME OUT!!! HolySh*t The Rock is...

Tue, 18 Jan 2011 02:17:18 -0800

Can’t Wait for FAST 5 to COME OUT!!!

HolySh*t The Rock is in the movie MUAHAHA

“Can you smell what The Rock is burning tires?”

Favorite quote from trailer so far…

“Above all else, We don’t Ever, Ever let them get into CARS.” >.

I Go Crazy - T-Kidd I’m feeling this one HAHA

Tue, 18 Jan 2011 01:26:05 -0800

I Go Crazy - T-Kidd

I’m feeling this one HAHA

My Physique

Mon, 17 Jan 2011 20:33:00 -0800

Wow I can’t believe how much work I have done in the gym for 5 months. I now weight less than 170 lb and use to weight 198 lb. I went from 20% body fat into a 15% body fat…Thats roughly 25 lb of my weight!!!! (little less). Standing at 5’11 and now I am consider as “Lean Muscle” from “Average.” My Six-pack starting to show definition and cut. Still I am not satisfied. I’m still HUNGRY to do more, and to push it harder to the limit.

Some people don’t understand how long it takes for a talent to be built. Alot of people assume that I am being payed hella and doing alot of modeling stuff. Its only been 5 months and ~~shit~~ don’t happen overnight. I am not only working on my body just for modeling and money, but I am doing it for myself. I don’t need money to motivate me to do better and to push everything to the limit. The main reason why I’m doing it, its so that I can better myself.

Money and Fame is not all there is to be a model. I have learn so much since the first day I came in to the modeling picture. And that attitude is something that I am proud to have change. Still I have more to learn. ITS THE STRIVE AND THE RISK I am willing to take for this career, and I am will to take it.

...love

Sun, 26 Dec 2010 03:10:32 -0800

I wish there was a way to express your feeling without creating such a big fuss about it…but who would hear about it? Who would even care if you write a paragraph about your feelings when you set your ~~shit~~ to private? Such a contradicting statement, but why think that way? “I don’t want to tell you, but I just wish you would know that I…you” Right?

Such a Sucka for...

Thu, 23 Dec 2010 20:42:30 -0800

I swear I feel so ~~stupid~~. She got me twisted, got me thinking about her all day. Writing this tumblr for that excuse. Sometimes its so easy to trust someone, but it feels like they take too much of that to advantage. I needa vent out. Tell me when to stop, because its hurting too much.

I get lonely too…

Sun, 17 Oct 2010 16:19:44 -0700

I get lonely too…

Wishing Kisses

Tue, 14 Sep 2010 00:08:54 -0700

Sometimes I wish I knew the truth…I don’t wish to look ugly, but sometime I just wish I knew what it would be like if I am not the person I am right now. What It would be like if i was obese or ugly, would you really kiss me? Every girl I kiss, I fall in love with and that its the truth. Being single this whole time made me realize this and troubled me enough to wanna blog about it. You might not understand it, and might be questioning why I would be like this. Alot of guys go through life kissing a great amount of girls without having to fall in love with them, am I right? To be honest…I have only kiss/make out with exactly seven girls. And they all meant alot to me. Sigh* Still I am such a fool to think that it could be more than just a kiss. Not many knows about the story of my life, and Its so easy for people to judge me so quickly…like a book, by just looking at me.

I can tell you now, I was once that kid that use to sit by himself at lunch. I was the boy that use to be called a nerd. Yea…I did not look like what I looked like now back then. You would understand, why I respect girls so much. Ive always wondered why the assholes gets the pretty girls, and they FUCKIN complain about it all day…when the right man is right next to you. Ive been that guy who was next to you all this time when someone treated you wrong. Ive heard every story, and I have been sadden by it sooo many times.

So why do I wish to knew the truth? I just wish someone would like me for who I am in the inside. Not by what I look in the outside. Sounds cheesy but damn its soo hard to find a girl like that now a days. Its always judge by looking like Trey Songz, or Looking like Taeyang and shit. And you ask why guys treat you like shit lol…anyways. Life is great how it is right now, and being around the greatest technology humankind has ever created, but I feel like I am stuck here. I feel so old fashion sometimes and I can’t help it. If I could choose a time life to live in…it would be somewhere in the past. Where family, and culture was a big thing. Not so much by “sex sell” shit. The world is corrupted, and I am just glad I am not corrupted along with it.

I miss Gundam 00. Can’t wait till October 10th for the...

Mon, 13 Sep 2010 19:14:59 -0700

I miss Gundam 00. Can’t wait till October 10th for the movie release! YAY.

I’m Goofy and Silly deal with it! Life is too great to be...

Mon, 13 Sep 2010 03:10:00 -0700

I’m Goofy and Silly deal with it! Life is too great to be taken seriously. Loosen up or get laid lol that should get you off the right foot. Just playing no beef. hehe

Broken Vow

Sat, 04 Sep 2010 00:33:00 -0700

She ment the world to me. She wasn’t perfect, but I did not judge her. I loved her no matter what she did. It feels like I wouldn’t be able to do that with anybody else. It hurts to know now I am alone. I was left and deserted. I had to bounce myself back up. Why did I care soooo much. Why did I continue to love her even if she did attempt to cheat on me, or found someone new in a day, twice, when we broke up. When she broke promises and said “promises were met to be broken”..I guess I was caught up in the fantasy of being in love forever. It hurts to give that much effort and let it go to waste, and to start over. She messed with my heart, messed with my life before and after. Why must she care so much about the physical look, or material things…when I loved her for so long. It hurts. I can confess that I still love her. And to date, I still miss her. She was my perfect, close to perfect. I tried to understand her, I understood that she was younger and still hyper, thats why I gave her those chances. I gave her soo many chances, Why? Till today I ask myself, why must I be so kind. But I know that we will never be, because she found someone else, and she have moved on. We will never be that couple you remember in Highschool. My dreams were crush as highschool ended. Opportunity has open up to me, but without her, Im just me….close to imperfect. She took the other half away from me. The reason why i am imperfect, because I hate my other half, it grew to miss the person I have to forget.

So till then…I will wait for someone to help me break away from this cage I have been sealed in. She will be better, and maybe will know how to treat someone in a relationship. It just makes me happy to know that I did the right thing. I treated her like a princess, I treated her my everything, and someday I will give that to my next. I will give it all and better, because being this lonely made me realize how your loved ones could disappear in a blink of an eye. I felt like it was a broken vow.

Dreams makes us happy, which also could be our biggest fear....

Fri, 27 Aug 2010 13:09:00 -0700

Dreams makes us happy, which also could be our biggest fear. What would you dream of if you could control your dream? While having the slimmest consequence such as being delusional. We all wonder why we do dream, and why does it effect our human emotions. Having the Illusion that we live in different times and different environment makes dreams a bigger type of fear, because we do not know what is expected. And most of the time they are not controlled. A lot came to believe that we dream of the last thing we think of, which is a complete BS because, a dream visited me about my ex when I have stop to think of her completely on these past month. So why do we do dream? Our dreams knows us the most. They know what we can hide within us. It digs deeper into our souls and mind to find what we should be aware of. Sometimes it can go so deep to the point we have Deja vu (predicting the future) or recalling a time that had already existed. Our dreams knows where to make us happy or sad/fear. Its like a never understanding figure that would never be concluded, because it takes actions that we cannot predict. Sometimes we COULD control the slightest amount in our dream, still we do not predict what is around us. We only control the actions we take in our dreams. Have you ever dreamt and felt like it was a dream in side your dream? Did you ever want to take a risk in your dream? Why does it feel so real? I know I have, and trust me I felt a slight chance of taking a risk, but why did I hold back, since it was only just a dream? Dreams can make you think that you existed in that period of time, since it can already trick the mind of illusional thoughts. It sometimes controls our bodies. We make motions and such, and also the capable of talking in our dreams. Why is it such a powerful figure, almost sounds like a god figure in some cases. But instead we all experience it. What if Mal was right (Cobb’s wife in Inception)? What if this is just a dream inside a dream we all live to feel like its reality? What if our after death is just some other dimension. Fear dreams and Love dreams they are there to only show us what “could be.” Dreams completes life, because without dreams there is no dreaming of what could be dreamt in real life, and predict the inception.